I, too, missed this post in December. I had a similar year in 2001. I feel for you, and I pray that 2013 will be a dramatic turn around filled with joy!
For me, 2002 started great with the birth of my nephew on Jan 1 (the first baby in Niagra County, NY of 2002), and continued with some personal successes in music and several good turn of events for my family.
I hope the positives of life are surrounding you!